..im walkin wit trudge as im goin through all the difficulties..

Stamina da hell

2011-08-31T21:09:00.005+08:00

Now a little touch ups on what I HAVE been WORKING on for this sem!! BIG THUMBS UP FOR ME HOLDING THE TEAM AND HAVING ALL THE BABES HELP TO GET THIS DONE!! From Legalz to D-three..

not to forget, here's a short performance for LEGALZ, just so you know who we are?? Simply just a group of girls who has passion towards dancing during University Life, this is how it should be isn't it?? Members of Seven, more than enough to form a strong bond between one another.. Here's a video performance of what we did , we're not professional, we don't dance like how other professional dancers do, but well . We have that confidence and joyful towards dance field, and why not? So what do ya say? Thanks To our Manager JJ ren helping us up getting several performances up.. =P

Whats up next?? definitely a productive SEPTEMBER WEEKENDS for us.. Brand new company hired us for performance.. larger group of dodgettes for CDL 2011 represents UCSI.. more over, AFSA invitations for opening.. WOAHHH babeh!! this is gona be shooo much fun.. here's our progress of cheerleading.. more stunts ahead, woots!!

re-consider again??

2011-08-12T21:36:00.003+08:00

SHALL I ? REmain and write my blog again?? TELL ME BOUT IT?? IF YOU WANT ME TO WRITE.. cus I have too much to blog, yet too little privacy to reveal.. SHOULD I continue remain as a blogger??

WHAT DID YOU MISSED so far??

2011-06-18T10:33:00.000+08:00

sowee peeps dragging and draggin up.. I bet this caused a major dropped in my readers amount. Anyway, let's make the long story short. Just a short catch up of what I've been doing.. in depth post will be reveal as soon as possible..

This June, a superb terrified busiest month ever .. Of assignments, of mid term, of performances, of elections & of probs in the cheer club.. its enuf draggin me to wall. With these stress and pressure, yeap!!speak of the DEVILS!! IM FINALLY down to sick. LOL.. still holding not to worsened my sickness.

As we were assigned to Penang for our final assignment (which is COOL), we Still managed to have a small trip with the coursemate together and had so much fun !! heehee!!

of course, not to forget people who made me smile and laugh like nobody business.. I heart you all =) Just a conclusioin here, together with stress, we grow up.. we toughen up.. we started to realize what friendship really is. As for those who doesnt appreciate that, they'll continue live in their princess fairytale world or acting as if Im playin the role in gossipgirls, I DO SCANNING like the photocopy shop does..As i Don't give a shits If I would be ur friend, the 1st thing i would say.. OPEN UP!! THIS IS REALITY and get mature! BOO TO ALL OF YOU!

wait up!! I'll be updating soon..

Clubs Day

2011-05-25T18:34:00.010+08:00

once in a blue moon I shall say?? Owh No no, it happens whenever new semester begins. Had few hours working on props and all a day before.. ALL the hardwork paid off, juniors helping out well. People are bravely participated.. Our cheerleading is now bigger and more fun!! wondering what cheerleading is?? CHECK OUT GOOGLE PEEPS!! Woohoo!! Its good to know that We ,such big family survived today and still on-going.. A big Thanks to Nav Nav for holding us up and backing us up by hook or by crook, thats the best you could do CAPTAIN!!

*stay tuned for our performances and HELL TRAININGS *
A picture speaks a thousand words, so have a look at HOW we enjoy while recruiting new members too. =)

Eunice & Jun Jun tadaa!
semangat punya dua orang

Mady the loves
meet Vivien here
Jun Jun & MUa

hardworking Cloudy Leader

GIRLS!
thanks to?? picture screwed up by NAVID!
the broad smile is part of CHEER YO!
cheerleaders life, always active and happy!

Woots!! WHAT DO YOU SAY?!

Meet ms Jesmyn tan with Poms POms hair!
*frowned look* LOL

Jun Jun, cool gilerr!
did tis one day b4 clubs day, its not that EASY YO!
DEVILS GO GO GO!
Mady in Scorpio, in progress doing this..
Mady in split, in progress as well..few more weeks!!

Last ending with Eunice POSE!
LEGALZ & D-THREE. SUPPORT US ON facebook!

Zoukiee~ ( For Sina's)

2011-05-15T20:13:00.003+08:00

Not to surprised, zouk zouk zouk has been my hot spot recently.. Sorry Peeps, Im not a hardcore clubber but not to deny that Im into the music and booze around. Speaking of other clubs compared to zouk??? Trust me, once u're here, its like a drug injected into ur blood and u'll definitely LOVE it..

Unfortunately Legalz babes aint joining me tis time so its a "bachelor" night only for ME.. was tagged along by Sina darling as he's leaving back to Iran, so yeap.. CLUB together with him it is as I promised.. U owed me darling!! Had LOTSA fun with them as well as some new friends Jamie and her Boyfie Michael... Not to forget a lil Adrian who sprained his legs and he came for club too.. tht;s surprising!! =P People would have surprised seeing me mixing around with lotsa international students.

No Doubt, they treated friends as part of their life. if you noe them well, they are so much more better than those "Biatches" who stalk you and acting close to u..anyways, Im totally fine with them.. =)

**I noe you girls LOVE to read my blog, come and have a look.. U're welcome to see how my life would be, YES.. I may have spend my time on clubs and stuff, but LOOK..I handle my way of life well even in studies as well!! But no worries, u guys will nvr und how nice my life would be..apparently No.. U ppl only live in the world where u became bitches, bitch talk about someone else and gossips and spread around, WORST THING WAS THAT FAKE SMILE and acting glamorous wannabe!! Thts pretty disgusted me.. **

Had a great nights.. and Lookin forward for babe CLOUDY to back on track..and we'll par- par parTTAYY again..b4 this, lets get our basics back up as coming performance hitting us up already!! MWAHS!
photos taken frm the spanish page, AWESOME huh.. =)
STAGE STAGE!

groupiee.. =)
NAVID screwed our picture!! urggh!
Jason-Adrian-Navid-Anne-Jamie-Suki
WITH the lovebirds Jamie + Michael
BOOOOO!!
lookin serious Adrian.. =)

Jason & Adrian.. hmm..in tipsy mode
what a face!!

Come along with Jason here..
Michael and Adrian Nuts faces!! shoo cute!!
drunkards..
Michael & Sina
Jamie aka pretty
Gay-ish..LOL..
Sina Darling & Michael

Adrian-Jamie-Anne
Yes, that Man with Three ladies

WOOPSIE!! Whisper talk..*
MADNESS THEM!! =)
Lil Adrian is K.O -ing
Lastly ending this with the pretty ones Kar Mun.. =)

MAPCU

2011-05-08T21:22:00.004+08:00

a day without BIRDS CHIRPING, AND IM AWAKE..yeap! SUNDAY MORNING... "NAIS" weather! why would I said so?? Well, starting from that Mr Sun, who keeps showing me its hotness, ended up giving me a great sunburn on my back, and THANK GOD! FACE WAS SAVED..lol.. BUT HEY!! just a distance away frm the sports court to the washroom, there goes my teenie skin..

My 1st attempt to MAPCU as a LOYAL dodgettes to darling Sina, YES HIM!! im being such a nice person promised to go for his match just b4 he's back to Iran.. =) I SAYANG U WHEH!! lol.. Just so you noe, MAPCU, Malaysia Association of Private Colleges and Universities, speaking of it, how can WE MISS THIS OUT?? ESPECIALLY WITH talented players we have here..**tsk tsk**
Of course, with such good players, active cheerleaders are needed!! SOWEE if we werent giving in our best shot of supporting as we are not in our UNIFORM, hahaha..jus jk.. anyway, thanks Babe Cloudy aka Captain and Cass cass as my companion.. Anyway.. great job they Had Achieved!! Performance was slightly Off today, but worry not..Im sure the coming up matches gona be exciting and awesome!!

Had our so called high tea LUNCH in empire with group of them...managed to rushed home for dinner with Mummy as well!!

EEMO..lol..

at

e Cass cass & LEADER Cloudy!
GO DEVILS GO DEVILS GO GO GO!

Happy Mother's day and to those who made my day!! YOU NOE WHO YOU ARE AND THANKS ALOT!!

2011-05-04T21:54:00.003+08:00

The truth is you're a liar, that you never hide ur feelings..I can feel it =)

I wouldnt take this as a hard time, because I wish u become a real and be more decisive!!

GIVING urself more confidence will ya?? even if the toughest task in the world, U will have me here holding it up 2gether..

Whatever probs u're having, we'll break thru it 2gether.. U noe i would do anything to hold this.

Smile dear, I noe its hard this stage, its even harder to me as well.. BUT i set that time frame, and I'll keep with that..Now i give my hope to you

Door are open if you ever come back..u're that master Key for that door. =)

I see me through your eyes, and I never wrong. =) its not a dream dear.
You know it's love when a simple message from him, especially that morning message. ^^

Never will =)

Baby do you still hear me?

2011-05-01T02:41:00.004+08:00

Somehow, somewhere, sometimes.. I wish I could hide things behind you, I wish I could stop showing my expression as easily as U can observe. Im no longer an introvert, I used to tell you how I feel like everyday.. According to my friends, they were all living happily ever after[BACK TO REALITY, im saying STABLE with their bfs ] while they turn their heads on me?? Im like a rate of shares,rapidly growing and decreasing.. unpredictable ,risky yet once you got it, YOU win. So, when will I start to get stable?? This time I said. =)

At times, I really have that urge to run over you and tell you how I feel again.
Yet, when u're 1st and 2nd calling me a dumb pig or other lil creature, It really dares me not to step closer to you. Like yesterday, while standing beside you..I tend to feel that butterflies in our stomach like our 1st date.. aww..and that heart rate pumping in a fast lane too..

I have no idea how long you gona REPHRASE your sentences of tat " If its meant to be".. Because even if I wanted to, I just cant speak it out right away. But, fortune and happiness are on our hands.. and we only have once in a lifetime to have ONE kind of experience in this, means have no second chance, so I believe than you and me should grab tis fate while we can. I lighted up the sparks, why didnt you ???

Dear, If you do feel the same, pls tell me..As once I step forward, I wont look behind, Mind me being cool and heartless?? that is just to assure me getting a strong defense and gettin STIFF if u're here to break me down!! I trusted you giving me a satisfy answer, matter of time and ur firm actions are really prominent in this stage. If its a strong relationship, we will go thru it each weak stages. =)
*the song I sent you?? It has its difficult part, but yea..Its worth for ur ears to hear it. Fyi, I cried whnvr i play that song.. It was supposed to be a surprise to earn us bck, but now.. Appreciation is what i got here. "

*ends here* -Loves u. Nitez

One step to 2x

2011-04-29T23:19:00.005+08:00

1st of all, big thanks to Darling Miki for making up the promised for lunch.. Bringing along with other two babes Yinky & Samie, aww!! its been so long since we all chat and laugh with crazinesss!! =) vry much appreciated and GOSH!! I LOVE THAT ****PRESSIE*** , imma achieve the best experience with it along!!

Hoping...But Unexpectedly, He came and brought me out for Dinner with his sick pale condition. I wondered why arent you opening up champagne and celebrating with ur fellas but dinner with me, if its for good reason , I'll take that in. =) being so helpless to make your laugh or smile harder due to ur side conflicts, I wish I could have care you more. We had a deal, if I fall sick, you do too, but now i did not, but why are you??? Anyway...just Take Care aite. we are goin more complicated.. but I will take this time to walk slower than ever now. =) by the time u go for ur trip, thats how we'll really have time without each other and think well about it. Dont you think so?

I wish to hear that you'll say Miss you again once u go to bed.. Thank you for the dinner extraordinary love magnet occupation SILLY!! =) If you noe, that I almost run over and give u a bear hug just now!! =) 20th is memorable!! At least I celebrated with someone with my family, my precious friends and whom I really love and appreciate eventho ntg special is going on.. =) I had learnt alot frm these..

The real Meaning.

2011-04-29T00:14:00.002+08:00

Extraordinary Love Magnet Occupations. Thats what i Used to call you..NOW you noe what it means??? =)

Happy Birthday to myself..im no longer 1x but 20!! WHAT THE HECK!! but hahaa.. im OLD as you said..JUST LIKE you !!

1st 29th celebrations by them

2011-04-28T21:05:00.006+08:00

Well well well, story begins in this way.. Babes and all finishes their finals on that day itself, so they decided to have lunch in Gardens. Even though my finals ended w eek earlier but simply just wana lunch with them and drove all the way to Gardens to join them for lunch.. ^^

Chilled out with laughters and gossips in Chillis.. Fuhh, This could be my 1st 1st time being unaware of my surroundings that these few ppl headed to washroom and i Thought it was real, But i bet They used that time to get me cake or something because its taking them PRETTY LONG!! =) Of course, Still under that hynosis situation where Im playing on Ipad and texting....AND talking as well.. THEN, BOO-YA!! THEY brought out the cakee...BIRTHDAY SONG blended into that atmosphere as well.. **awwwww....*** Seriously touched by seeing that, its been a while since I my last surprise during SB outing for mua 17th Bday..LOL.. HOW LONG COULD THAT BE!!

Last but not least, I nvr held any party this year.. Because I believe that Something is more worth for me to do so instead of having party and booze around, somehow.. With a group of true friends who speaks directly and truthful to you, THEY SHOOT direct to YOUR self-esteem because they TELL the truth and they dont LIE,laugh loud out like there's no tomorrow, thats the kind of friendship I am looking for.

Specially thanks to Legalz Babes, ever since I participated into you ppl.My life has gone so much colourful and worthwhile, everything that I do goes mesmerizing.. =) Unfortunately we're lack of MS JUNVINNA for this celebrations but no worries, we had so much fun in club a day b4 that!! ngekngek** Thankss Jia Wen and Tenn Sen for being such a good actors..awww!! =)

Trust??

2011-04-28T00:31:00.002+08:00

just to let you know, I left ntg much with me but ONLY THAT TRUST on YOU !! the hardest thing I have to keep it to myself is that feeling of not revealing out for real.. Am keeping it for god sake!!

How do you do?

2011-04-26T19:01:00.005+08:00

Observing ur behavior these days, you were gettin a lil bad-tempered due to some personal problems.. But worry not, after finals u'll be able to deal with it all... Sometimes I wish i could let you know that I could be your listener as well as ur consultant..-THAT SOUNDS FISHY if i let you know dont ya think?? =) Like seriously, If you could express it out, you will feel better, thats what you told me when im having my problems.

Mean time, Knowing your papers are getting tough and u needed more time.. If wasnt because of my weakily peezie body I would have stay awake till u finish ur revision but the medicine seems to take its toll on me...=/

several posts about u these days, guess like YOU'd created FAME in my page.

Drawing near to May intake, as usual..Legalz were invited to perform, with an increased of juniors, together with them, we came out with the team called D-THREE which represents DEVIL , DUKES as well as Dodgettes. Coming 28th of APR, stay tune for our awesome-ness performance.. Ladies and Babes, we need to come out with new routine soon, lets get the work done!!

If life is meant to be exciting, I would be glad to frail again and build up my confidence, its colorful isnt it??? thats how I am here to make us two instead of solitary...
I chosen you 1st, but have you chosen me yet???

I wish you were here.

2011-04-22T23:58:00.002+08:00

To me, birthday is like an anniversary where a person celebrates their date of birth. To my birthday itself, the very last time I happened to celb my bday [EXACT DATE] with a person when i was 16..Vividly rmb that I came home with empty handed, tht's fine..AND, not even any dinner or lunch for it..at tat time, He was important to me..but its past and we're friends now.. =)

What Im trying to say is, been years that I nvr celebrate real birth date with someone who is really worth to be appreciated and put effort on other than my family.. am hoping for some changes or new record , but...but.. lotsa considerations...lotsa nonsense thinking.. ended up..."nahh, im just dreaming..it will only be the same like last year.." =(

surprisingly, dont get me wrong if any of u nvr get invitation to my little crib. simply because I am not goin to held any party bash... =) therefore, this time.. I choose to be alone,to be at home, perhaps I need some time.. to look over the world, what kinda aim am i looking for??

the whole april still a mess to me. I wish I could have fix things right again, if only I get a chance. You know??? If things nvr give up, on my bday itself.. there will be someone driving all the way from his place, even if its with empty handed, his arrival mean it all. It is supposed to be like this....but I screwed it up ='( meeschiu mr.sillyyyy!! yet unable to put tis on mouth..

whats my wish?? If smtg good turns out, then YOU will be one of those..

2011-04-22T09:56:00.002+08:00

allowed me to recall about last night, was invited by Ms Junvinna few days bck to zouk,kl.. As usual we'll tag along Eunice babe and unfortunately my other ones CLOUDY couldnt make it... =( as Mr.K said didnt get to order tequila shots, ended up drinking illusion..tasting GOOD afta long time nvr drink on it huh!?? THANKS GUYS ... The night remains as happening as usual, heart is not.. Babes were all downstairs while I chose to stand upstairs to soak into the environment crowds and their laughs..

a feeling of Missing him emerging it out like water pipe hose broken down.. BUT, no tears no tears ** I promised I gona be strong and go thru this.. Just few more days, I will leave from all of these.. I will leave everything irrelevant to me..I will leave to bring u free.. just let me Hold on and thinking that I deserve this, He aint like other guys.. I see it with my own eyes..I may not noe his thinking well, but that pair of eyes looked into me identifies everything!!

UNLESS, the exception occurs.. my minor wishes come true.. =) U and I noe that We could create miracles.

Have you ever care how do i feel??

2011-04-21T21:27:00.002+08:00

Have you...ever

think of her the 1st thing u open ur eyes??
Miss her b4 you close ur eyes & head to bed??
put aside everything and concentrate chatting with her??
look into her eyes and tell her, I heart you still silly.
worried who is she out with? what is she doing???
jealous of people who goes after her?? with any intentions??
miss her when you are doing anything or even NOTHING??
thinking of her that what is she doing now???

think about it..Have you everr everr think that I am the only choice, if no.. Be my guest.

Time passes faster with alcohol as ur companion!!Seriously I think i probably need another pass out night..

do u still rmb me??

2011-04-20T23:05:00.001+08:00

He, made me smiled..thanks alott!! =) shhhh, nvr tell u why but yes..its enough..meanwhile, behind ur laughters, are not those laughs which i used to see before, smtg seems to be hiding..i dont know why.. If you would tell, i would have listen, nomater how hard the fact is..how tough the problem is. U got me worried, always and always.. what else i can do other than keep being nonsense in front of u,hoping that u'll be calm and go along with ur own solutions.

You're the reason I check my phone every five minutes just to see if I have a new message, even when I don't.Always listen to your heart over your head. The heart feels real things, the head just acts.. We both knew that something is going on, simply just because of the fear in you as well as me, that led us both phobia in holding hands once again. When a girl tells you about her problems, it doesn't mean she's complaining. It just means that she trusts you. IF you have that sense of knowing something is up on me, it is that connection and charges I am talking about, its a chemical reaction that occurs between two person like i said b4.

if you hold back feelings cause you're afraid of being hurt, you end up hurting anyway.
Maybe there's a bit of me waiting for a bit of you ... I have to make it real this time.. I dont want ppl to look me down as if i am ONE!! I dont wana misinterpret u anymore..
sowee, a lil bit drunk at this hour.. =/ am a lil bit straight forward and write everything out here, because i knew that..everyone in any edge of the world will see my blog, but.. YOU will not =) and im considered that im keeping things well.. assumed that i did

worried and lotsa worries

2011-04-18T21:12:00.000+08:00

I knew that u were undergoing a tough time. I couldnt express how much i wish to help him out, because im afraid that he'll end up angry at himselves and me being annoying. So, I can only express it all here.. Hoping that he'll be fine, all i can do is..to be by ur side, whether u feel like telling or not, but at least u noe that I am supporting u nomater what.. Focus on ur studies, what comes to be solutions, it will signals u in a minute.. It is just a communication errors, it could be fix and there's still ways. worry not!! right afta finals u'll be just finee!! Trust me. U were the one who spotted my differences when smtg is goin on, but i can nvr do so.. =( all i wish is to pass u bck all the luck u've been given to me, its all bck to u now.. ^^ cheers and gambate !

tonight, I shall leave u some peace and space on revision and critical thinking.. =) whether im qualified to be ur listener or i dont, 24-7 on call if u need someone to listen to..

Tell me if this is worth

2011-04-17T21:48:00.001+08:00

If you keep hurting a guy and he always comes back, he's a keeper. IN opposite,if hurt a girl and she comes back, she loves you and thats for real. Now i can guarantee u On it!! =)

was glad to see some supportive readers with meaningful advices and suggestions.. THANKS alot ppl!! lets hope for the vry best then.. =) You may not see me hurt, you may not see me cry. But everytime you act like you don't care, I die a little more inside. I can't explain how painful it is to wait for something that I know will never come.

anyway, not to admit that there are tons and activities stuffing me up.. All because of two reasons, to celebrate for me.ANOTHER thing, is to keep me thinking about him. If you know me well, i am such hard-headed person. If i choose to stay home, I will. Surprisingly a person rang up this afternoon, was being asked out.. other than that, should have go for drinking session, seems like some ppl are tryin to get me drunk these days..

am sorry if Im being mean rejecting dates, just dont wana give false hope and stuff.. I am single yet available too! Like i used to say..this time was real for someone =) just wana have a normal life, will drink lesser,club lesser except for ONE THING, is to chat with you all night long. Whether how many minutes it gona take..I just feel glad and relax when Im chattin with you. =) babe was right about me, just gona be normal... Everything gona be normal, right silly??

Was wondering, do you still keep that questions with you daily??Although I could hardly see but It doesnt matter, we're in the progress of learning..You deserve to be with somebody who makes you happy. Somebody who doesn’t complicate your life. Days drawing near, yet i could hardly sleep but still gona face it with the least smile i could have =) **finger crossed** We can use a little hope sometimes, u know? that feeling that assuming everything is going to be okay ease ur tense down.

I never expect to be forever, but at least we could go on longer. If a step is not even taken on a try, we'll never know wat tomorrow could be. This is life, always filled up with surprises and laughters. At times, it may bring us down, but that's how we find perfect person from imperfect ones..That gota be you!! good luck i shall say. => assembled wishes and prayers of all, wishes him the best in FINALS!! teehee*

Im so glad, you made time to see me

2011-04-16T20:58:00.004+08:00

HaD that fate browsing through twitter seeing one of the babe posting replacement job .. Without hesitations, took up the job as it only takes two hours plus to work on.. =) easy and simple job..good experience and a great activity to kill my time..

As "Elmo" make no confirmation with me last night about our lunch, somehow..I tot it was canceled tho. But it was such a bliss when I received his msg.. =) a simple lunch for us at Sushi Zanmai.. Somehow, I tend to be more quiet compared to our 1st day out.. All I've been asking for, a dinner with us..and a movie..and tht will be the end of my april life..That would be enough.

Although it was a lunch but I'll take that my 50% wishes achieved... as u make full used of ur time, accompanied me lunch and kill the time walking around and laughing around untill my working time on...

more over.. what i left,is a movie with you. and I'll be glad enough to smile and walk on. =) Thank you. For all the laughters and still tat existing trust.

and i apologized for millions times of misinterpret u with my own perception.. I know u are way better than tat... I should have know about it..If its meant to be, it will be.. =)

am i doin the right thing?

2011-04-14T02:01:00.004+08:00

as long as i push you off.. we will nvr fall again..
as long as u had a lil change, i'll take the chance to push u away..
as long as we chat too much, whn it come to an extent..i'll urge u to bed..
without asking ur permission, ur perceptions.. i think I am right.

I did not wana give u pressure, by thinking that question everyday. by asking urself what do u really want.. So, im giving u the only option.. LEAVE b4 things gettin deeper..b4 IM GOIN DEEPER..U'll nvr noe what kind of girl i could be..

there are tons of things i wanted to show u, wanted to prove to u.. but i dont find it worth to do so..
u said im weird, indeed.. i am always weird.. Somehow, I kept things frm u, there are things that u're not meant to find out.

u ask me why? wat is going on?? Nothing much, I just felt tat we're goin close again.. yet, i had the fear arised again.. However, I started to feel a mile distance with ur mindset, I dont get to understand u, i dont get to predict u correctly.. I tend to predict u wrongly, although u seems to care for real. Maybe I am attached to passive predictions already, I wasnt being placed as ur priority lists anymore. You were laughing at my stupid acts when I dont find it funny, or maybe i was too serious???

so tell me, whats the matter??? the whole april..its such a fool to me..

多么的不想，却只能这样。

2011-04-13T00:54:00.002+08:00

虽然会逼你赶快睡觉，但心里，怎么都不想。。多么希望能与你聊多那么一会儿。
没得与你聊天，心里很不习惯。。但是却感觉到，我不该留住你。。我不敢去想，也不敢期待。。
不是不想，只是害怕会情不自禁。。真的要控制，不能这样。

真的不该有那样的梦。

梦见了什么？？我哭了，你却说。。：“对不起，我错了。。你，受苦了。。朋友告诉我，怎么能为了小事丢弃你。。我不会了。”然后，你和我，手牵着手在哗啦啦的下雨天寻找你的车子。就这样简单的梦。却带来许多的不安。

夜深人静，那是因为该要孤单的时候。就只差那一个人就美满。。就算再舒服的床，却也觉得太宽。就算把日子填满，节日还是提醒我孤单。。

很想。。
与你再共一个晚餐。。一部电影。。
但是，再怎样，都说不出口了。。
如果能化真，就这样足够了。。

我的他。

2011-04-05T22:54:00.002+08:00

想用一篇完整华文的文章，来表达我正正的他！

你，有双不怎么大的眼睛，不高不矮，也不肥不瘦的身段。。
你，平常不怎么喜欢大众交流，而只有身边的朋友最能了解你。
你，不太会安慰我当我失落的时候。
你，与我住的地方不怎么近。
你，会有异性缘而你本身就看不见。

这样的你，我不怎么发觉与理会。。这可是以前的我。。
还记得我不怎么愉快的回忆吗？？虽然你不介意，我却能感觉到你很心痛。
还记得我们在曼谷那把握时间的时候吗？？看着时间一分一秒的过，我们却越来越怕。

如今，我感觉到。我真的不怎么在乎坏男人的存在。。或许我真的要的是好男人。。也就是你。你往往说，你不是，那以下的，根本不是你。。
当你靠近，你那不肥不瘦的身段，给了我足够地安全感。
当你身边围绕着一群的朋友，你不忘了转简讯给我。
当我需要人陪的时候，你或许不大会安慰，但你会仔细聆听。也告诉我，你，可以相信我。。
当你想见我，你会甚至利用那点点的时间来见我。

我很高兴，但这是短暂的，对吗？我真的好怕，好怕您，会做出不理智的决定。
我握紧的，是一个值得我去投入的手，真的不愿放松。。
我们的故事真难忘，太多的回忆和希望，不管它有多疯狂，我愿意一生收藏。
给我们那一点时间，是缘分，它不会尽的。。
或许，是我的错。。也不该发展地这么快，能不能回到从前。。?=)

所以，不要放弃，因为有一天缘份会继续。。好吗？
我知道，你担心对我第二度的伤害，但我不介意。。人生就必须历练这些过程，否则不会成长的。。当我选择了这条路，是我！！不是你。。我相信你，也相信自己的眼光。
你，会知道，到后来，你会知道我还爱的是你。。

看见你的眼睛，告诉我不是结局。。那只有等待咯。相信你自己相信我吧！

结束。

Bangkok trip

2011-04-01T23:46:00.028+08:00

date falls on 17,18 and 19th belongs to our SHOPPING day.. had so much to share yet too little time to express it here.. photo flows, and u'll see what i meant..

overall, BANGKOK is like a heaven to girls..ONCE u're there, perhaps wats cheap in there will totally dropped ur eyes! and of course, thanks to Neng, a friend from Thailand who joined us for the dinner and had lotsa fun with us.. lookin forward to visit u again!! =) b4 i do, COME and visit me and YINKY babe kayy!! gona miss u and thanks alot!!

3 days trip of two simply just NAISSSS where u have no worries that the safety here compared to M'SIA. urgh!! speechless about M'sia system anyhow.. but yea, overall trip were nicely ended with loaded bags and clothes.. =)

mcD as the only breakfast ..

HERE WE GO!

this is the results of having a low-fair rate of flight..ended up seein such AIR-CONDITIONER effects.. =)

tallest hotel building in BANGKOK

the daily one hour wifi access ..
ended with her sleepy face!

beat around the bush..

2011-03-26T01:29:00.002+08:00

not into blogs these days, probably tensed up with coming performance, trainings and finals.. Now you ask, whether is there something bothering me??? i would say.. Yes.. and can you pls list it out?/ and i'll say, NO i cant.. =)

i could hardly joke around these days, not because im being such emo kid or what so ever.. but just realized that I dont really want to.. Give me few more days, i shall put on my updates in bangkok soon..and oso Jc's bday.. coming updates and so on!!

and by now... stop beating around the bush, i am intentionally to let u noe that.. I care of every actions that u do.. LOL.. even just a tiny act that makes my feeling turnin upside down.. =P

stay tune..!

if i get the chance,i will..

2011-03-12T02:23:00.002+08:00

if i get the chance to say smtg, i'll say I miss u..vry vry much..and im gona miss u everytime b4 u go to bed.. I'll miss u everytime i woke up and see ur msg... now do u get what kinda chance im saying??

Im holding my control as i wont step forward the line, because matters or not..results in the end wouldnt be a happy ending either.. so why start when u noe that guys often lie and they dont keep their promises??? i had fear in trusting u ppl, i had shadows.. i had it all the nightmares.. and oso...i had my dream crashed..!

theres time I am completely loosin control and lifted up my emotions on u, and afterall I just have to get rid of it by hook or by crook because i dont see the reasons why m i over-reacting on what u said.. this is dumb enuf!! Dumb dumb mindd...!! it sucks!

When positivity appears

2011-03-04T21:02:00.003+08:00

people around me, im sowee for me INactive towards my personal blog. anyhow, here are some short updates of my recents.. =)

assignments stuffed up, loaded in a mountain high.. but worry not, got it handle in a fine way..
speakin of my passion towards dancing, it seems like Fame is on our way in nowhere.. seems like everyone is calling for "Legalz" to perform this and that.. all we received is lotsa LAST MINUTE invitesss to perform. In fact, we are always prepared for the worst.. As we did went on few routines during leisure, so there's not choreographs at the eleventh floor anymore.. =) here's our lil New logo created by Babe Jesmyn, Thanks alot of helpin out eventho u urself were busy with other things too

not to forget, We came from diff backgrounds of dancing life, and we have huge space to improve tho, so we take in comments and critics.. Yet, we are still in a team and thats wat amazed me in a way! they are my life, and tremendously I finally found a real way of stayin healthy and enjoyin mua life!

Fyi, we are working on with Cheerleading club too.. Whoever is currently a student in UCSI, u're welcome to give me contact if u're interested to be part of us!

little catch up

2011-02-28T21:37:00.008+08:00

MY two cute boyfiess..J.H & Lim lim

light snack?? HAHHA..

carbonara our favorites!!

celebrations for Jc's 20th bday, had our dinner in a clutch of approximately 12 of us in Italianese and joined up the drinking session in S'Mores,Bangsar South.. some photos to be shared here =) **surprisingly, she drove us home!! =) ** lets guess who is she?? =P a quick learner and safe driver somehow..LOL

look at the awesome mona lisa artwork!!

cheap cheap and CHEAP including ABSINTHE the killer!

brothers to the rescue?? AHA!! u wish!

afta all sets of liq uors, there u see him bein steady still =)

Joanne here

bday boy JC & babe Yinky =)

its blur, i dont know why =S

videos will be upload in fb if possible, sry for the delay =(

2nd Video Shooting

2011-02-20T13:20:00.002+08:00

when all wells ends wells too, we're placed at the center of attention..where pedestrians couldnt just stop their steps, enjoyin our shooting progress!! MUHAHAHAH!! perhaps an autograph for u??? Jus Jk..

thankss Alot to these awesome ppl finding us to help them out, Tenn Sen the camera aka director, Jia Wen the leng leng, Shirley aka ze assistant, Eunice & a new friend.. Of course, with the actress Cloudy,Eunice and tagged along the only male actor Sina the poser, we'd create a greatest of all ...

stay tune for the videos!! but here are some photos behind the scenes anyways.. ^^
Shirley that bluurr blurr face, SHO cute!

Jw & Eunice!! =)
siao!! =)

Sina here! =)

tenn sen =)
cloudy & eunice

good poser! =P

NAIS!! =)

last ending with cloudy-licious! =)

small summarize afta the shooting, its been months since I last met this "someone" .. As he promised to bring me for Jap Dinner,so why not? ^^ accompanied him gettin his bike in K.Damansara, while time is still early for dinner.. chilled out in Overtime Tropicana City with few pints, Fuhhh!! nicee and windy huh!! I had fun, and i seriously do prefer a whole day activities like this.. and thanks alot for wasting such precious time giving me such personal moment, u noe it means alot to me.. =P

whn the party dont start till i walk in

2011-02-11T11:48:00.001+08:00

its Friday night..CNY week on goin, but ppl tend to party outside rather than stayin with their family!! wtf is that!! Anyhow, was invited by Gj to join his gang for a party booze in Mist.. of course, not to forget meeting up the fate girl Vivian and Rachel babe!! met some new faces i would say, REALLY ALOT of them..hunks chicks whoever!! Ohh ya, tagged along our lil dodgeball captain Mr Hairy as well and his gang... and oso Legalz babes!

unfortunately, it is supposed to be enjoyin yet resfreshing i mean.. but everywhere is sho sardine-packed.. but Im glad that we have a huge circle of guys, they make enuf space for us at the dance floor!!

Woots!! some long lost friends..facebookers.. are all at the same venue again, muahahah!!

wat a day... but had lotsa fun tho.. =) tht's a reward for me afta strugglin over so much assignments.. and MORE TO COME!!
**frankly ones, perhaps in this kinda lifestyle, is how i get to go on to be better..is how i'll ease u aside..**

Groupie photo!!
Mahmod on the left and Adrian
cloudy :" where's the beer.. beerrr??"
hmm, silly face as camera taking too long to respond!
woops?? whose hand and heels??
Sina here..^^
Cloudy and i =)
guess who??= )
taken by cloudy..tak tau ambil gambar apa pun =)
crazeeehh ppl!! with loves! Nav-Eunice-Sina
peachlly here.. =)

Dong Zhan Shi Temple

2011-02-05T21:36:00.001+08:00

its FREEZED here, time to get some warm up yo.. bring u the temple of Dong Zhan Shi Temple. My 1st visit to such grand places... it is located in Kuala Langat, journey of an hour plus we finally reached destinations..

crowds tend to be f.o.c for all.. =) LOL.. perhaps the public holidays or arrival of CNY that attracts them... a show of lights enlighten the atmosphere in a warm peaceful way.. of course, they have numerous of buddha statues.. without hesitation I'd make a chant to them, that... My parents will always be in a good health condition, living happily and joyfully.. while to me, may the real luck seriously falling down on me.. so that i'll get a sign, to do smtg better..

wishin trees.. =) just like what u see in the movie!

end of the picha for the day.. =)

wishing lamp..with all the wishes and loves , dear Lord, I sincerely hope that u hear me, u hear us.. because we're praying hardly here..with sincerity and loves!

zouk for LEGALZ

2011-01-28T19:27:00.010+08:00

drawing on such memorable day, was tagged by Babe Cloudy to Zouk.. Been missed the chances due to some reasons in previous and NOW?? IM all out.. ^^ of course, not to forget taggin along Jun & Eunice... Perhaps the passion of dancing flows in our blood, it seems like even without liquor we started to grind with the beats huHh?? =) am proud to say that I have a BIG FAMILY where everyone being straight forward to one other with no lies but trustworthy.. As time goes by, down down down with the liquor has finally caught me DRUNK! D.R.U.N.K i meant!! YES!! *****SADLY THING IS THAT*****the night was fulled of HOT ASSES like SERIOUSLY!! Liquor has not blind folded me yet, i mean for real but dang that I got drunk!!

A young man was placed as apple of our eyes, spotted him next to our table.. TIll when the atmosphere gone WOW WOW , the babies went for dance while that's the time im SITTING alone in DRUNK face! LOL, HERE GOES THE young man came to approached!! As i wasnt sober enuf so no response was given to him, SHITS and wasted m i?? =( HAD A WHALE OF TIME with them, LOVE U ALL! sry for troubled those who accompanied me, really thankiew & thankss alot!! THANKS babe Cloudy for introducing new friends to us.. ^^ upcomin club we're gona be SOBER and pancing pancing!!!

eunice here.. :)
cute sial kann her face here.. =)

anne=eunice-jun
with our host CLOUDY here!!
short hair genre =)
long hair genre..lol

camera technical prob, waited too long..LOL
captain & the assistant yo!! =)
ladiessss with great posture!! HAHAHAH..wth my face!!

LEGALZ

Cloudy and Peachlly
here's our so called LENG ZAI, face was covered due to some personal reasons..[simply because we wana save his face among us and not to u ALL, LOL.jkjk.]
Eunice tu sexy look..

drunk d!! LOl..completely GONE here..

LMFAO u guys are AWESOME!!

2011-01-20T14:45:00.006+08:00

awesome people!! awesome new friends.. introduced u my vry 1st step into MOS, FLMAO right?? LOL.. it was a packed sardine situation, god darn it!! been lookin the ways to go upstairs takes me roughly 10 mins..

sadly is that boyfie & friends couldnt join us as their tix sold out, =( sighss, fortunately I have Mr Kelv who got me the tix and brought me along.. Thank you for patiently waiting for me to get prepared afta my Hell training Dance practice , i owe u ehh?? ^^

wonderin whether is the liquor with mixture of h20 or anything, couldnt feel any abit all the while.. the mode just not there, anyhow..friends of Kelvin were awesome tho..no doubt!daniel??jason?henry??davod? who else i missed?? LOl..sry for bein forgetful throughout the entire day so..i guess, just a short posts afta all.. 1st party of the yr Yo

Mr Kelvin

Mr Jason

here they aree!!

put ur hands up and ended up like this!

smokey atmosphere where everyone starting to punch their legs on floors with ze beats!!LOL

ladies !!

Mr Kelv & Joanne here

my POUCH!!!lol
urggh...lazy to tag them all..
Woopsie!!LOL

guardie bags =)

Not to forget, someone went drunk and got a hard knocked on the door,LOL.. it was a fate that I get to noe Dj Ssense at the counter while gettin plastic bag for the drunkard!! Nice meet up whey!!

Xmas eve,Xmas & New Year.

2011-01-15T22:00:00.007+08:00

sry for the late late posts sho sho much dear readers!!!i noe some of u people winded about my delayed!! omgomg!! so here u go!

24th of Dec

a memorable day for me.. as someone came and paid me a visit, thing is..i just Found out that he's gettin more Shy when he talks to me.but the way he talks is gettin more macho now.. tht's smtg im glad to hear.. =)

2ndly..got lotsa activities poppin out, under such situations i'll oways call off all and stay at home..Im weird i NOe!! hahaha.. and of course, this is not just the ending, rang up the boyfriends and out again!! serious shit that tht's my 1st time drinkin till im more than a quarter drunk.. 12 buckets of beer where 5 bottles one..NICE ONES!! =)

special mask given by the waiters.Lol,how silly

my cute HUbby with the mask on..

I HAD FUN with them, and i felt secure when my friends around..especially them.. so ya, i DRANK and puke!! uahahaha..in a clean way, not puke anywhere alrite ..LOL ..Merry Xmas babes!

25th Dec
attended Aunt Mary's specially made dinner every year, this yr was diff..as all of the cousins werent able to attend and left me alone there!! =(

not to worry, the food satisfied my mood of the day.. ^^ thanks to uncle being such a good chef!! =) of course!! a day afta i puke, its a slightly upgraded lifestyle with white wine especially afta the lamb & turkey slices...

a petite turkey i've ever seen..LOL
our favorite at all times!! OYSTERS and FRESH ONES!!

31st Dec
Oopsie Mickie passing by!
baby Yoyo not helpin any..just showing me such face!
yes! we COOKED!! altho its bbq..there's some of our favorite made dishes!

held a small bbq party at my place, mua surprise frm the boyfriends where u see the cars in a convoyed form arrived at my place strikes 12!! =="

Booze night again..but with a new invention for us.. by Mr .J.... anyhow, drinks finishes in a glimpse as the beer finishes in roughly 15 secs time for everyone.

**I nvr regret of having such a UPSIDE DOWN year.. I am tremendously puting my glasses on, spotted people with their true colors..founded the heart on heart people..undergoin the sorrows and difficulties that i nvr had before =) Besides that, I am glad tat I've met those who hurted me, and those who left..u brought me up, I nvr blame you for leaving =) there must be the fate in wrong timing, I tears as it shown that, Im a grown up..I learnt to feel sometg depth inside me..I've learnt to take it all the grudge without releasing it.Thank you vry much for everything! ^^

Year 2011, I am hoping for sometg U NOE I NOE!! To be happy, to create happiness, To enjoy..and of course, to be appreciated! =)

Yinky's 19th

2011-01-02T16:38:00.002+08:00

tik tok at the clock, Woah!! its HER birthday. exact date is on 29th, sry that i've been M.IA for the past two yrs durin her bday, this time I had finally made it!!

International The Legend Hotel is our party place,on the 26th to 27th DEC 2010, a breathtaking scenery..enjoyin the sea breeze tapping on itself.. its a best place to relax.. =) dont ya think so?

of course, nvr forget bout our booze and food to match with this kinda environment!! approximately number of 20 guests arrived,games games drunk, swim, sleep.. Thank god!! Yinky Chong is smart this time!!! as haf of others went off, we get extra free rooms to sleep!!

speakin of rechargin energy,time passes slowly..me and K.lim aka husbie went frm freeze death to a sauna situation!! at last, i jumped off frm bed and spent my entire hrs with Ipad on the sofa..HAHAHA , untill Ms Yinky awake and we ciao for BREAKFAST!! =)
love u babe!! hope that u had a great time,wat comes to u,take it or leave it.dont let it ruin ur mood!! cus u still have US! mwah!

i would say, fun time oways passes in a blinked eye,but it means that an upcoming party is up as well..

prepareD!

Me & Angel

Ivan & Eric yo!

new maid..Soon Soon here
Shermaine the new comer pretty!

MARIA aNNE =)

sweet ACCOMODATIONS ..have a look!

while ladies preparing the dinner.
ze guys enjoyed the water..
& Beers too!

pretties here..
dinner is SERVED!

baby boy Jun Hao

Ruki-Miki-Anne-Yinky-Shermaine-Imen-Angel

Alex here..

Mr Jeff my lil bro
would u prefer batman or spiderman?
Cempakans!! excluded ERIC & JC!! hahaha..

MY SHIRT WHICH they found floating on the pool..LOL
S.S kissed my lil baby boy JH!

my hubby!! LOL..yep! he's bck frM Aus again!

Hean-K.lim-Me

LOVE BIRDS!! awww!

OMG!

ladies ladies.. =)

alan tam with a errrm...BROAD sMILE?
gaming time!

LIquor and MORE!! =)

group of gays sleepin on our bed!
me and babe Yinky's warmest breakfast while others sleepin like a "corpse" =)
perfect ending with group picha!!

double STAY TUNE!!

2010-12-31T00:09:00.002+08:00

awesome partay and booze night held in Port Dickson.. invitation by Miss Babe Yinky Chong, for her pre-bday celebrations..

upcoming new year Eve celebrations as well.. barbeque and booze night again..

omgg!! been drinkin ever since the early of Dec mann!! my brain must have rusted somehow with beer and wines!! SHITS!! anyway, lets get drunk and fun till the last day of 2010 !! =)

stay tune for PHOTOS..pichas..and we'll bring u the joy of all !

Merry Xmas

2010-12-25T13:46:00.002+08:00

massive breaking news few days back, whoever did that among us.. I am puting a deep curse on you, i wish ur HOE will be infected someday, let the dicks fck till you die!! because of you, that caused us fought , YOU noe who you are.. so SERVE you right lifeless ass.

its Xmas eve, where shud you be?? party? drink ? chill? have numerous planss goin out, but am not givin any confirmations so they went on with their plans.. LUCKY me, who got a bunch of no plans boyfie's..LOL..

had a great night with them.. 12buckets of beer, more than just enuf !! as my cup is nvr get to be empty at all times.. Hmp, guess wat happened afta all?? awesome!! I got completely drunk, i could hardly talk..and puke.. all i've been doin afta im drunk, am just layin on everyone's shoulder..wtf!! soweee ppl.. =( i dont like the feeling of bein drunk, not anymore..

Anne Choo, chest up, stand up with confidence.. prove that u're a potential biatch! and we'll see whats up next! YOUR LIFE got to be COLOURFUL today onwards!!Merry Christmas People, may Santa granted our wish!! mwahs!

rainy flushes

2010-12-18T11:32:00.009+08:00

whn free flow night is down to the city, 7aste New York arrived at Hex & Mayfair for an awesome party with great performances. It was cold and freeze as there is raining cats and dogs, party nvr shows any dissapoint moment tho. In conjunction of it, let's thx to Mr "Johnson" for the VIP invitation. Thx to Kee with the crazeh fellas ppl..

of course..faces are everywhere to be seen. Bumped into mua aka facebook long lost babe Vivian, we get to know each other in fb, we bumped into each other in shopping mall twice..if not fate wat isit called?? =) and had a great time with her friends & herrr of course!!

cant wait for coming zouk night..woootss!! surprisingly, met a dodgeball player who used to noe "YOU".. how can he noe such a heart breaker ass like u?? byk mempersiasuikan.. save the saliva up, no more name of U appearing or news of u..just go to Hell..

with me bein on the stage, with the beats counting, steps dancing, emcee accompanying, the night went so smooth!!! AHA!! i admit tat i Aint a good dancer but i simply just LOVE to dancee babeh!! my night already proven that, i am way have "MARKET" still, and u aint richy , smarty or even handsomemy.. so, buzz off!! imma have a better life and move on.. Thanks Kee for so much for heart telling..

yeahh babeh..u guys are all mine!! =)
-atmosphere with the CROWDs-

FAVORITE of the night flow!! cosmopolitan the love..

Whiskey only for the VIP's..LOL

Jack Daniel the love whiskey yo!

Sisters. =)

Yk aka new guy.
macha!! ini byk rude ehh..
Mr Johnson playin with fire-extinguisher!! OMG!
Kee & ze friends, sry..it was blur!! =(

smtg went wrong with this photo, creepy!

last with Kee & I

a better quality photos, specially thanks to Jason Lee so muchie for the photos,u're a great photographer with UWA lens =)

OOpsie!got a candid here!
Me and babe Vivian =) pretty isnt she??

C.E.O

2010-12-10T12:32:00.000+08:00

been stucked at home for the past 5 days due to severe sickness and weakened antibody in me.. with the tags by Kee, i've decided to take in some fresh air outside.. so we went for karaoke session at Farenheit 88 whereby they have this newly opened karaoke place called C.E.O, shinningly classy & nice as my overall rate.

tagged along Sin & her bf as well as cousin's gf Kelly as well.. had a blast, had a whale of time of course.Altho i am still coughin out my ass in the mean time =) so let the photos do the talkin.. it was a great day with these ppl and lookin forward for comin Xmas events & N.Y.E ^^

wutt!! ==" my sickcat face

dinner time =)

fruits served with rm48+ per plate!! Exp wheh!

still in that weakcat face =)

giant Heineken!! have one today!!

Sin & Kelly

sisters =)

Jeff & Soon 's 19th{Luna Bar}

2010-12-04T20:29:00.000+08:00

is still feelin sick bloggin bout this bday celebrations.will only ONly draw out main outline throughout the celebrations. Happy Belated Birthday to you two lil monkeys .. a promise remained as a promise, as Jeff lil bro gave me a call a week earlier about me bein booked on 3rd of Dec night, with no doubts I agreed to attend.

unexpectedly I was defeated with high fever, coming up with flu and sorethroat. Thank God a day b4 the bash fever has gone.. still.. I had lotsa fun, altho drawin near to the end of the party, im feelin sick like shooo gona die in the nex min..

had a whale of time as usual..what could be more?? Upcomin babe Yinky's bday..STAY tune!! we're gona drink like there's no 2molo.. WOOHOO!! i'll make sure i keep my body in a healthy state tis time..

ps* babe Yinky, wat r u tryin to take here?? oopsie.. =)
Ivan Siah =)

ladies [Yinky,Angel,Imen,Joanne,Anne]
Eric Teh sini!

Cheerss ..Edwin -Ivan-Ct & Mua

sleepy face..DUsh! *

Me with bday boyy Soon Soon =)

JC yeppp
TRIPLE i's [Ivan-Imen-Ivan]

Soon Soon[bday boy] & Joanne

lovebirds Joanne & Raymond

OUT..lol
Joanne Yap

groupie for Alex - me - Miki, wonderin why 3 extras behind =S
forever and ever darl..
totally K.O-ed Jeffrey and the sisters
Hean hean & darl

Kah Hean - Miki - Jun Hao
:(

Ven Ven, tq for bein carin throughout the night =)

nak gaduh kerr?? tak.. angle shj

MIKI darl..self-shot =)
??

Yk Chong & Canny
Mun Tou -Jeff Bday boy- Miki

Ho Ho Yinn Yinn & Babe Yinky
two partypoopers..came more than 15 mins less than half an hour =(

oopsiE~~ terkena Jeff =)

Blowing cake timee pepoSS!

Come to Me~

2010-11-28T14:09:00.003+08:00

without hesitations, short & a bob hair is my choice. It is to believe that gettin a new haircut changes ur luck.changes ur life.. somehow, it depends on ur point of views as well. Decision made shall not be taken bck, so there you go.. My lil slide shots of my new haircut .. pretty satisfied enough, as I've been long hair for the past 7 yrs..

to be frank, im pretty bored with those who has a long and freakin straight hair but without any styling..colouring fading.. and flat..[sry if i offended those who has a straight & long hair, im just briefin it out my opinions] in order to cut off my split ends, due to coloring & digital perm for numerous times.. my hair is no longer healthy.. so Why not give a try cut it short as i've nvr tried b4??

whether you like it or not.. I did smtg that I felt grateful and happy about it..with no regrets! So, what about you? are we gona make any changes in the coming future?? I will say..Yes i will..

i will live better =)

2010-11-26T00:11:00.000+08:00

we had a long talk.. and i was told about who were you really is.. gratefully thanks that, I even got to know that what you've done behind my back while we're 2gether.. If tht's how my life is ought to be for this man, not anymore for now.. it is hard in the 1st place, but today, its gona be so much more easier..

you congratz me on having new love, in fact.. who is he?? Sam Tsui, if you really wana know.. I am actually amazed by his clean clear voice.. Somehow, that kind of dimple which is charming tho.. It wasnt bout the love on love thingy, more like me impressed by him.. do confusion solves??

May you learn to take in others, as who they really are.. They deserve to have a real heart frm you, not fling & not lies..and not even thinking of others while 2gether with her as well. Ur attitude which sounds like a leopard who will nvr change its spots, shall be banned too.. you noe it hurts, alot of people.. to ppl you love, your friens.. somehow, even to your family as well. I believe that you had a complicated past, you were once true to her.. we both know who she is, but love, you dont judge others by giving them a half heart while u're with her.. If that so, choose to be single, dont ever think that Im a nice girl and u came to me.

like the song playing in my blog, it was only just a dream. You wannabe single?? well, be my guest.. Im done with ur play-offs.. We're friends still.. =)

Boey was here =P

2010-11-25T12:35:00.002+08:00

startin with Ms Babe Boey's picha..here goes the flows. She was hving some kind of personal issues last night, therefore.. Being a nice friend here, woke up while the birds chirping period, picked her up frm the stations..and head to our destinations for MOVIE session.

not to forget to fill up our tummy, ShiLing is our selection. The whole major purpose outing is to cheer her up, calm her down.. Girls like us?? strong frm physical but fragile in deep.. but worry not, wat we're grateful is that..we have both as peer support anyhow ! =)

surprisingly.. two guests joined our ladies outing.. Shawn & Cassey.. pretty random hurh? LOL..yes it is.. Anyway, picked Boey's selection "LET ME IN" as movie.. Overall, ERRM.. it wasnt really that scary tho.. more like a warm touchy film whereby it involves vampire and human.. LOL

while the guys left.. we were once again headed to Jonker sweets

this is when we both shared our thoughts and our probs.. find it common is that, we both been thru alot.. altho it seems alot, but there's this particular person in our life tat we are unable to wipe it off.. perhaps even with Thinner is hard to wipe off as well.. While listening to her, slowly observe the watery in her eyes.. tellin myself that, if ever I am a man in my next cycle of life. I'll nvr hurt people i love..but to appreciate them..

Babe, if memories are meant to be recall.. lets just recall the good memories, while the pain and sorrows.. we nvr get to wipe it, but.. we could have hide it.. take it easy, we may cry sometimes.. because we often hope that our bad memories can flows out as the tears out as well.. Worry not, as long as Im still alive, we'll be friends and I'll keep you smile at all times.. xoxo Loves Anne

just a dream

2010-11-24T08:30:00.002+08:00

reasons why m i awake at this hour?? simply because i tot my dream came true.. had A dream that, we patched.. again.. this time was so real, that.. he was shocked to see me passing by the shop lots. Touchingly, we hugged and that feeling is warrrmm as well.. Moreover, was a lil bit funny seeing John.s appeared in the dream as well, I think supposingly im having dinner with him..and He's there so i just bring him along and join John's table.

He..was given a warning by John.s, John.s said that.. so it was you who hurt our lil princess?? we have put so much protections on her, but you break it.. and now you want her bck?? are you sure with it?? orelse i would have smack you down with one hand dude...

His replied : Aiya, of course wont!! sure wont mann..not again.. lastly,he ended his talk by telling John that he loves me. at the same time, I was told to lift his belongings in his car.. so i did not hear what were they briefly talkin bout.

**BOOP!* im awake.. tht's just a dream baby.. it wasnt real anyhow.. but, the touches were so real afterall..

if only..

2010-11-23T15:28:00.004+08:00

words that have been uttered shall not be take it in bck.. If only i could make it clear to you, if only i could give myself to you..if only, there's explainations could have change the ending.. But i was thinking bout you, thinking bout me...thinkin bout us, wat are we gona be dear??? yet, it is only u're in my mind but actions are not being taken..

a non-revealing truth... you'll nvr know.. lets this go on.. because fck that shit u're right!! nomater what i do, fck that shit too.. I sense a minority of possibility of us for a while last night, and i was told not to think of it anymore.. may you continue thinkin that, i am deeply cruely left without feelings !! or perhaps i am the drama queen lookin for some new tactics to trick on you..

I nvr was real.. fck it up !! tears of mine are for the sake of acting.. u'll nvr noe about me.. im a fake ass!!

i shall see u again in two yrs later..whn time is right again. Deal!

phuture virgin

2010-11-21T12:05:00.006+08:00

whn blues comes to excitement.. Its been weeks since I club =( simply because bffs prefer liquor and beer in house rather than clubs.. time to get some new gang, mixed with the New ppl..New experiences TOo, imma gona love this club sho sho muchie!! V.I.P in zouk?? COUNT me in.. =p

of course.. sowee to Nic aka my god brother who promised to bring me , but he was draggin a lil bit late as he has to pick up another two ladies.. Anyhow, at least im Glad that I managed to get along with ur girls there =) nicee meetin them too.. of course with these hardcores , WK & Ho YiN will nvr miss the weeks..

As I have tons of friends with their tables here and there.. I chose to stay with them tho.. WAIT!! it wasnt them, Mr Wai Ken did not reply my god darn msg and only get to see him AFTA the club. =0 OHH YEEAHH! Micson Mic Mic & his friend, two lonely guys patrollin around without tables..AWW!! but is alright, we'll have fun again comin weeks.. so Knock on my wood tat mummy is in a GOod Mood like yest again !finger crossed xoxo

Fuhh!! sumone looked COOL here =)

Kee here

U GOT SCARSS YIN!!

ze friends =)
this is Micson, new kaki found =)

smile har laa Mr Lim =)

unfortunately and fortunately, smtg happened throughout the club and on the dance floor.. Need not to put in details here, but TOUCHY TOUCHy happens?? i'll Sue u!! LOL.. thank Kieww Mr J & Ho Yin bein companion. Less photos were taken cus we arrived LATE, but we had lotsa FUNN tho ..

how do you do??

2010-11-18T12:53:00.002+08:00

a harsh week has passed.. moving toward our own route, I know.. True love isnt a one day thingy, time proves. =) we both noe who and where to turn to when it comes.. Nvr gone too far, its just the wrong time of us meeting up.. Yet the wrong person..

The key to succeeding in a relationship is not finding the right person; but it is a learning progress to love the person you found.. :) I'd make it.. did you ?? I'd expected the chaos, expected the decision..even expected to be expected.. In fact, we started with admiration, learning, attraction & sometg which, for the one of better word.. I called it the happiness.

worry not, its not an emo post showing how sad i am and how pity i am, and how much i need you guys to sympathize me.. its a bullshit thingy, its my own problem..and nobody could lend me an aid!! NO one.. Im stayin positive, wishing the positive will attracts the positive to me.. We could be friends, tht's what im asked for.. ur apology is not accepted, simply because apology stands a chance for me.. whether in yrs, times..months.. or anytime it can be used.

Mind me being hard-headed.. hate me bein a dumbo.. but look, i find myself worthy of doin tis. I feel better continue my life like tis.. I nvr once hurted like this b4, mayb i shudnt write the word "hurt".. its part of the progress for me to grow up..And i did.. Lastly, I wanted you, but I noe we couldnt make things 2gether anymore.. Take care dearie , nomater what happens 2morrow, you noe that you always have a shelter here. And i believe that tiny little chance of possibility!! =)

so long, fzw..